nothingness

I

don’t think people understand… that restricting, purging, and binging is a habit for some people. its like smoking cigarettes. it’s a hard thing to quit. a few weeks of treatment isn’t going to ”fix” people. 

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I drink on the weekends.

and I dont think: oh that was so much fun. I really think: why did I drink all those calories. why.

I eat.

people are happy and I want to die.

I dont eat. Im happy and people are upset.

fuck this

I fucking hate treatment so fucking much. the only reason why I even tolrate going is because of my friends there. but I hate it. I need to get discharged. so I don‘t turn into a fat cow. 

so.

how do i get discharged from treatment while losing weight, hmm hmm hmm. question of the day. gross. tomorrow is going to suck. 

Anonymous asked: Where are you from?

somewhere in america.

what the fuck

is up with people making it their mission to get me to eat. and then, when they do, its one big celebration. buuuuuuuullshit.

just took two pills to get all of this food out of my body..

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